Frustartion part 2

So i love ancient history, mostly greek and roman. And our museum is having a great Pompeii exhibit and you know what was sad, the only people i though i could go with, were the little kids i nanny for. Having no real friends since i was a little kid, I'm used to being alone. But sometimes, like this is gets me. I wish i could call someone and say, hey wanna go to this with me? But there is very literally no one. I'm going alone which is big for me but it's a museum full of kids so I'm more comfortable. I also found out about a roman festival going on in a park near me and i can't go alone because it's too many people and too out in the open. And i want so badly to have a friend to go with. And i can't. I want a friend. Just one, is that so hard? But i can't meet anyone. I can't go into public places to meet people my age and even if i could, I'd shut down. Everyone deserves a friend don't they? I'm cute, I'm funny, I'm sweet. Why doesn't anyone like me? It sucks. My fucking best friend is a 11 pound poodle. I'm sorry this is getting a bit upsetting. Thanks for listening.