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Hi all. I forgot to mention i will be away for 9 days so i doubt I'll be posting but you never know. See you guys soon!

Vacation Anxiety ( get it? )

So before i get to the main post, i want to just share that the little thing on the side of my head that i thought was a tumor now hurts. Which leads me to believe its a pimple but I'm actually terrified it's not and will more that likely go to a doctor when i get home from vacation which normally i wouldn't do but the fact that its movable and now hurts is seriously freaking me out. Now to the vacation.

I'm going on a cruise on Sunday but tomorrow we are making an eight hour drive which is seriously freaking me out. I have an irrational fear of vomiting. When i was younger i slept in my parents room because it was closer to the bathroom. I mean it was bad, and it got better, manageable when i talked to a shrink, although it could also be age. But whenever my stomach hurts i ALWAYS freak that I'm going to throw up. And it's NOT just the fear of throwing up either.

It's the fear of doing it in public. I'm terrified of throwing up in front of people, you know not making it to the bathroom in my time. It's just irrational and stupid but consumes me. i have maybe two bags of mints a month since i pop them when i get a stomach ache since peppermint calms them. And the sugar causes cavities, but moving on.

So eight hours in a car and I'm TERRIFIED of throwing up or getting sick while in the car. It's irrational and stupid but it's all that's running through my head now. Well night.